A to Zzzzzzz

Serious post alert.

In fact these are the posts I wanted to do but felt that ensuing judgment would be too harsh, but i haven't slept at all tonight so f**k you.

I can hear the birds songs. I can hear the world around me coming to life. The beautiful sunrise piercing through the curtains like a warm dagger that signals what I had feared. I'm not going to sleep tonight. I try desperately to free my brain of the unnecessary thoughts but every time my head comes to rest the wheel begins to spin again. The redundant feeling of quitting the attempts to sleep is actually rather comforting as you know that even though you will feel terrible the whole of the next day, you don't have to try anymore.

It was at this moment, it clicked that this is what I want to do. This is me. This is who I am. I want to write. And i shall. For who and what are questions that can be answered later. But for one short moment there was clarity born from complete and utter frustration.

This whole post is completely insomnia induced and for all I know could be complete rubbish. However, right now, deluded or not, it makes sense. I don't know whether I'm alone in this revelation or whether others understand. I hope that others do find a sense of satisfaction in believing in their calling and their natural ability.

:D

TO

The Age of Discontent

Serious post alert.

If you came to see a video of self induced vomiting or Adam talking about his Man crush, go to just about any other post. This is a somber one.

Money keeps us up at night, unless you have plenty then it keeps you up because your probably spending it. Last night i couldn't sleep worrying about my overdraft.

There are no jobs in this barren wasteland of an economy, i even got turned down by a terrible workplace I don't wish to name...pre-interview. Yes, the economy is so bad that we now don't bother seeing a potential employee face to face anymore. I have been offered every job i've ever been interviewed for, as you can tell i'm proud of this. But how is a guy who is all about face-to-face interaction supposed to get a job in a labour market that won't even waste interviews on any sorry soul?

This only seems to mirror the sad, lonely feeling currently pulsing through my body as I have no job, no University (till September for my final year) and no money to do anything but write. I guess it could be a blessing in disguise, or it could be your worst nightmare. I think it may be time to either start writing my book, or turn to Buddhism...or both.

The past few days I have spent more time with my family than ever and it has made me realise that this is a good path to follow. I have never had a stable family until now and so its all new to me. Until now, I have never had little toddlers and babies around and it's freshing to see such innocence that remains unaffected by the harsh realities of the outside world.

It comes down to this. I feel old. I know im not, but i feel it. I'm going to be 21 in a matter of months and already young scamps are questioning my presense in nightclubs! I don't look old, quite contrare, i occasionally get ID'd. However, i'm past the point of carelessness. Even though i pretend, i'm further past that point than i'm comfortable with. I'm a no worries kind of guy, but they are creeping into my life and i just don't like it.

If i start acting strange and doing things that don't make sense, take a second and remember this, I will probably be trying to recapture my youth at the tender age of 21...

:(

TO

Film Review: Terminator Salvation

If you couldn't tell, my life has currently been reduced to absolute boredom and trips to the cinema with male friends...not even female friends let alone dates.

Nevertheless, as a film geek I am enjoying myself and this was a film I had been looking forward to for some time. I have to admit i was left slightly disappointed. The films clearly aimed at a much younger audience with very little blood, no swearing and you can't help but feel maybe they were thinking about gaming console sales when discussing plot lines.

That being said, the action is relentless and some of the effects are awesome. The idea could have been expanded but I feel they kept it simple for a younger, Hollywood era audience.

My review would give this film a rating of 6.5/10. Plenty of unfulfilled potential.

Oh and I mentioned I did indeed get very over excited at the Transformers 2 trailer.......again.

:)

TO

Film Review: Star Trek

Tonight, my friends and I visited our local cineplex to watch a film. Now those of you that know us will know that out of the group of four, I love nearly all types of cinema, Gareth hates all types of cinema, Adam loves comedies but any other genre has to create an epic film to satisfy him and PJ watches Hannah Montana, enough said.

So as you can tell I often struggle when confronted with a movie going trip with these guys...after much delibration (and persuation) we settled on Star Trek above Terminator 4 and *sighs* 12 Rounds.

Here is the laymans review with scores out of 10 from the group:



My personal review of the film would contain the words...i hope that Russian 'actor' never works again. Other than that I enjoyed the film even if it was a little long. J.J Abrams left his mark with unbelievable CGI effects and fast paced plot lines. The first Hollywood film I have watched in a while that required some brain activity to process, which was surprisingly pleasant. While a lot seems to happen, at the same time with it being carried out in space at warp speed one can't help be left feeling like it hasn't.

I'd give this film an 8.8/10

I have to say that I'm probably being harsh in my assessment due to the unachieveable heights I was raised to by the Transformers 2 trailer that graced the advertisement section that made me scream with excitement in a packed out cinema....*sighs again* theres nowhere but dissapointed for me to go with that film.

Oh and the night wouldnt have been complete without Adam creating his own creature that consists of Wolverines physique, John Cenas hand waving, Spocks 'V' and Transformers movement:



Please comment with your views!

:)

TO

"Pick a word for me to write about..." - "Breasts"

http://www.answers.com/topic/breast

Breasts - n.

1. 1. Either of two milk-secreting, glandular organs on the chest of a woman; the human mammary gland.
   2. A corresponding organ in other mammals.
   3. A corresponding rudimentary gland in the male.
2. 1. The superior ventral surface of the human body, extending from the neck to the abdomen.
   2. A corresponding part in other animals.
3. The part of a garment that covers the chest.
4. The seat of affection and emotion: “Griefs of mine own lie heavy in my breast” (Shakespeare).
5. A source of nourishment.
6. Something likened to the human breast: the breast of a hill.
7. The face of a mine or tunnel.

Where do i begin? Well we all know the primary function of breasts are the nurturing and dispertion of milk via lactation (right!?). The sexual role of breats cannot be understated, (hehe im so pleased the random selector picked this word) the role of breasts in human females lives has vastly evolved and stands much higher than most other animals. The breast demonstrates a visual sign of fertility and maturity which is often competely unconcious, this is usually the scientific explanation of when men say the bigger the better. The Kama Sutra even has the marking and indentation of the bussom with nails as erotic (Glad i've never bothered with that stupid pointless book....).

Feminists have argued that examples of breast fetishism have been found going back to the neolithic era, with the shrines in ancient Turkey. Archaeological excavations have revealed that the walls of the shrine(s) were adorned with disembodied pairs of breasts that appeared to have "an existence of their own". It has been argued that the breasts were revered by the women as instruments of motherhood.

The reverence shown to breasts also appears in the science of today's modern civilization. Breast fetishism is claimed to be an example of a contagious thought/expression (or meme - very interesting topic i will be discussing in the future) that quickly spreads throughout society, and that breasts are mainly bio-semiotic features (study of visual signs in biology) that have evolved to influence human sexuality rather than serve an exclusive maternal function.Legally, many Western legal systems believe the public display of women's breasts to be indecent exposure (Boo!). However, there are activist groups such as the Topfreedom movement who have been successful in persuading courts to overturn such laws (Yay!) on the basis of sex, arguing that a woman should be free to expose her chest in any context in which a man can expose his (i hear people across the nation saying "True Dat!").

Topless sunbathing has also become a mainstream accepted activity, adding weight to the claims that women should have the right to choose themselves whether they wish to be topless (Amen Brother!).

Breasts shoud be celebrated, no matter size or shape...so join me in raising a glass to toast the beautiful breasts in the world, we all love a good "face of a mine or a tunnel"!!!

Wow should get some extra hits from people 'accidently' finding this post on Google search...i only hope they stay and enjoy the read

:)

TO