2009

I havent written anything in a long while. Its amazing how ones life can suddenly pick up pace without any noticeable warning. I have been working really hard at university to try and get a degree of some quality, but when i think back, thats a lie. I haven't worked really hard, but it feels like it. God knows how those other 'good' students manage it.

Anyway, enough excuses. Basically, I was contemplating deleting the blog. I can't see the point in having this taking up web space when nobody really looks or updates it. However, the proactive side of me (the one with a halo and wings) decided to just post and put the feeling to delete off a little longer.

So here I am. Looking back through the posts its quite humbling. Seeing, the promises my friends and I made to each other at the start of the year, to make this about 'the boys'. Seeing that fail. Seeing myself post a list of my perfect woman, thinking it would never be met. Seeing that succeed. Seeing me post new opportunities for writing, then seeing myself quit them.

I realised that this blog serves a massively important purpose. I know ultimately no one reads it, but its a record, its something to remind me where I have been and to write where I am going.

I cant believe this years nearly over, its been one of the best years of my life. The first half had some of the funniest moments I can recall, which has been complicated into a video already - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qH6mbWwyMxI - (shameless plug). The second half, has cemented some friendships further, lost many more, found an amazing person, lost many insignificant.

Two contrasting half's of a year, that has been both juxtaposed and intense but thoroughly enjoyable throughout. I've partied hard, relaxed harder. Worked a lot, slept a lot more. Been to Rome. Seen the birth of two beautiful babies. Seen an idol perform. Seen another NFL game. Watched my favourite comedian live. Played the best football of my life. Found the love of my life *cough, Adam, cough*, and this girl called L. (hehe :P)

So, heres to 2010, which I've heard is Gina Harrison's and Atem Eyong aka Jay Breezy's year. So, I've had mine, heres to you guys, i wish you all the best, invite me to the after parties.

2010

TO

Honesty and Integrity

There is nothing better than having a gut instinct and finding out you were right.

It can be about anything but it seems to be even better when its about people. Probably because we (most humans :S) spend so much time interacting with others.

Those moments when something clicks and you realise how good a friend someone actually is is remarkable, similarly when you realise someone you've always thought was shady finally shows their true colours.

It's strange, I have a friend who I have for a long time regarded as a very close friend. However, like many people in this world, they are very different in groups as to when we are one-on-one. Again, like most of these kind of people, they are a lot nicer and friendly towards me when we are doing something without a large group as he finds the need to project their humour (which is mostly the 'insult someone' kind) toward me. I found I picked up this trait, much to the annoyance of other groups and even some of my best friends. Don't worry, I have slowly been extracting it from my demeanor.

It's even stranger that when I question their level of friendship I find myself conflicted. Half the time I think of them as a best friend, the other half its like they wouldn't care if they never saw me again and slightly two faced.

Who knows? Because I don't. They often mock me for my humility and emotionality...is this because they wish they could be so too or because they like to take the piss? They are often supportive and negative in equal parts so to ensure I remain confused about what they actually think.

Simply put, I can't work out whether i'm over-thinking (the sociology student in me says this isn't possible) the whole situation or whether they are the deepest person I know in terms of the fact they are repressing a lot through jokes and emotional retardation.

:/

TO

Mates Rates

So tonight was the big night, the evening when friendship was reevaluated. Ironically, it made me appreciate my own relationship more as well as reminding how important my close mates are too.

I think most of the guys realised that we are drifting apart and that more will be done to keep us connected in some way.

At the same time I realised how good my relationship is based on the grievances of others and how having a girlfriend who is just like a best friend can really be the difference between it working and it not.

I honestly don't think i've been this happy in all my life, and while my brain has been taught this means i'm heading for a fall I don't think I actually care. You have to take the good times while they roll; and i'm rolling.

Tonight was a funny experience with our dinner starting at 7 and then doing 50 shots in Baa Bar by 9.15pm, meaning we were all gone (in the drunk sense of the word) by 10pm.

Hence the only video in which PJ makes a bet he can't keep to:



:)

TO